Just Going Through the Motions.


It feels like I’ve forgotten how to draw.

I’m trying to put pencil to paper but nothing seems to be coming out right.

I’m doing my hardest to find work but not really had any leads, I’m trying to sort out some volunteering with an animal sanctuary, but as soon as I told my mum about it she started picking holes in my idea as the centre is sort of a bit out of my way, but they got back to me within several hours of me emailing them and actually seem to want people unlike a lot of places near me.

I’m not in the best mood, I applied for a job at a well known UK petstore chain and well. I got rejected, no idea why just got an impersonal, automated ‘you have not been successful’ email. I know its most likley due to the amount of applicants but I feel that I would have been good at said shop and just wonder why I wasn’t picked. It could have been distance as I’m not in the town the shop is located but at the same time I’m not so far away that I can’t get there easily.

I’ve only been job hunting for a week and I already feel dejected and defeated.  That’s not a good sign, I send my CV out, I ask people, I phone, I email and I don’t seem to be getting much back. It’s all very well the Job Centre telling me to look outside of my town but honestly, if I do get an out of town job I probably wouldn’t be able to afford it especially when I’m going for stuff that just meets the mininmum wage bracket.

It also doesn’t help the amount of stuff that wants either experience that I don’t really have or need me to have my own transport. How am I supposed to have that when I can’t afford to learn to drive in the first place?

It’s not much help when you’re constantly running into stuff that points out ‘we’re in a recession’ ‘too many people not enough jobs’ ‘firms are shutting down’

So for now I’m unemployed, and can’t seem to draw or write at this current point in time. I’m fed up, grouchy and maybe feeling a bit stir-crazy.

Hopefully something sorts itself out soon…

Very Much An Early Birthday Present

So, as you may know my old Wacom Volito basically decided it had enough. I’d been thinking of maybe getting a new tablet, and so because it’s my birthday next week I asked if maybe I could have a new one. So my mum ordered me a new tablet yesterday and…
Suprisingly, it turned up today.
Here it is (the black one) next to my old tablet, as you can see its a fair bit larger. I really like this tablet, I’ve got more room to work for a start, the drawing surface is smooth and of course I don’t have a super worn down stylus and it seems now I can actually ink in Photoshop without everything turning out wibbly-wobbly.


Look what came today!
However, installing this will have to wait until I get home from college. But yay, it finally came!

Block B Gone (Hopefully)

So my art block seems to have shifted somewhat. I’ve not really got much to offer up art wise but the ‘Gaaaaagh I can’t draw’ thing seems to have passed. I think I found my cause, my ‘style’ was changing it’s not really major but because if it nothing seemed to be coming out right. That and I’ve been pretty swamped with college work and we’re nearing ‘you need to get everything tied up’ territory. (And maybe. just maybe I’ve been spending too much time on the XBox…)

But this block seems to have passed, onward and upward and maybe I can get myself remotivated again.

So… Urm… Blah…

Yeah honestly I’ve not got much to say right now. As you may have noticed my ‘artings’ have slowed up a bit latley. I’ve been doodling a bit but I admit I’ve not made much stuff that’s ‘worth it’ right now. It’s annoying as I know I’ve got some stuff I need to do, namley character designing stuff and some other bits and bobs I want to do. And I have only one sketch request left for someone and yet it’s one that’s being a real pain the bum. That and I think my ‘style’ is changing a bit again so I’m kind of trying to see how that goes.

So yeah I admit creativley I need to kick myself up the backside atm. It’s annoying me a bit. Most of my time has been either at college, doing assignments. And I admit my XBox has been distracting me as of late. I’ve been replaying Dragon Age: Origins over the last few weeks and the fact that Dragon Age II is coming out this week won’t help matters.

So yeah that’s it. I need to motivate myself.

Just Checking In

Okay, just time for this months ‘no really, I’m alive’ post.

I’ve been at college for  a few weeks so I’m still adjusting. Let’s see two days I finish late, one day I start late and I have two days off in the middle of the week. (seriously, what bright spark came up with that idea?) I’ve got various bits and bobs to be getting on with (oops, I should probably be doing them now)

My group is actually pretty nice this year, I’m with a lot of people who I was with either on the Intro course or my First Diploma and unlike last year there seems to be no gossipy nags. Although I’ve had a few facepalmy ‘why don’t you know that’ moments. Such as

What’s a Marsupial

The Czech Republic is near Jamacia

What’s adhesion mean?

Drawing wise, it’s been pretty slow these last few weeks, but I have some stuff to get up soon hopefully. I’m also getting ready to start work on my cosplay costume. (I’m going as a My Little Pony) my fabric’s arrived today so I can make my hat and gloves.

So yeah, that’s me done for now.

Still Alive…

No Portal reference intended. This blog has become a bit dead again. I do have stuff to scan and show off but things have been rather hectic around the house and well I just haven’t felt in an ‘arty’ mood the last few weeks I’ve been focusing on other stuff.

So yeah, still very much alive just not doing much. And I have a notice, there’s someone using Ebay under the name of ‘Starrypawz’ this user is nothing to do with me so if you have problems with them do not contact me!

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